Monday, July 4, 2011

Miss me? Not! LOL

Cannot believe that it's been a month since I posted anything, but it has. I wasn't going to post about this, but today is my 58th birthday, and I'm indulging myself. I had a mild stroke on the 22nd of last month. Earlier in the month, I'd called my dr.'s office for an appt & told the receptionist that my bp was very high (180/100) and I was afraid I was going to stroke out. The dr. is a lifelong buddy of my husband's, and therefore will see me on a very reduced charge (no insurance/job etc). Anyway, where was he? In Costa Rica Doctors without Borders, I think. Well, it happened. Wasn't sure I'd see this day even come, sometimes I wasn't sure I wanted it to. My body is wearing out so much faster than it should, or at least faster than I would like it to wear out. I could deal with the structural instability (i.e. RA, OA, Osteporosis, Fibro), but now it's electrical too. Sheesh!!! These PVC's are leaving me breathless, anxious, dizzzy.

Then, there's my husband who has been laying in bed 24/7, for real, the past 2 years since he got fired for not doing his job well. Granted he has COPD, but why in the fuck does he still smoke, and diabetes, so why in the hell does he still eat what he shouldn't in vast quantities? He's obese, wonders why he can't do anything. Because he hasn't done a damn thing. If you don't use it you lose it. Guess who takes care of him? I jhonestly want to shoot him between the eyes.

I've been such a flake to my DT at Smeared and Smudged, and am really very sorry.

Well, this pity party is over.

6 comments:

  1. Dianne, I HAVE missed you!!! I have been worried, wondering where you've been. I am so sorry for everything you're going through. Happy Birthday? I question, because I know you're probably not in the party mood...I'm so sorry about everything you are going through. I have missed you...and I hope you will be around again soon. Please, be well. Know that t here are those that have kept you in their thoughts.

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  2. So sorry to hear everything that you are having to go thru. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts and sending some healing energy your way.

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  3. I am basically the same boat! we are both falling apart over here also, but I am the one laying around and disabled. I can only speak for myself, but part of the laying around is depression. the rest is true fatigue, the meds I take, or the pain I am in. Hubby is diabetic with complications, and we think he had a stroke about 2 months ago, of course he refused to do anything or go anywhere. MEN!!! $%#@! I too wish I could shoot him sometimes! I am sure he thinks the same as me. I was horizontal for almost 24 hours yesterday. My cervical spine issues were soooo acting up that in addition to the nerve crap I feel...pins and needles and burning down my left arm, and the pain I feel in the neck and left shoulder, was OVERLY amplified by severe pain in the shoulder, arm, upper back on the left, and I was also getting pain shooting up from the neck into my head.
    I knocked myself out with Vicodin or at least tried to, I did sleep but it wasn't without pain. I am still not 100%, and typing bothers it, so i am only using the right hand for the most part, :sigh: I am thinking my Rheumatologist is right and they may have to increase the mgs on my Neorotin, and I can't wait for this new drug he has RXed to get here.

    I hate being like this. I know you do also.

    Hang in there, and you'll ALWAYS find a good ear and a shoulder with me, if you need to vent!
    Gentle hugs, and warm blessings,
    Susan

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  4. Happy belated b-day. I know you're not in a celebratory mood, but at least you've survived another year without committing murder! That in itself is an accomplishment! We miss you at the ink and are all sending healing thoughts and energy your way.

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  5. OMG this is sooo awful. I won't even say h***y birthday.... just shoot the b*****d !!
    I do hope you will be feeling better real soon - it's just dreadful :-(
    cyber hugz
    Ike xx

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